Really, it has been a long time that i have not written anything in my blog. Actually, the time is passing so fast that i am not being able to get it…………….…………….. Wake up at 7 am in the morning, do some regular activities, have meal, go to the office, busy most of the office times doing job, if get some times free than join the net, read some interesting blogs, at the evening stay some minutes with frens in baneshwor chowk having coffee and back to the home, watch tv for sometimes, have dinner, do some gufgaf with sister and now a days dad is also here so have some kurakuni with dad, read some interesting books or news and go to the bed at 11 pm with mentally and physically tiredness. Everyday i m thinking about to do something new, to write something in my blog but everyday fail to do. Actually, i m a little bit lazy also. But today making myself a little bit active, i am trying to update my blog.
Here are lots of things to write but my fingures are not working properly because nothing positive, nothing optimistic, no any progress, no development, nothing to mention proudly. When i look at me and think about myself then i feel sad. I always think to be different, to do something best, to become a great, to be recognized everywhere but these are only my crazy thinking, in reality nothing is happening as per the wishes. I am doing good job. I am getting good salary to survive in this hungry city. I have got a good platform and got the oppertunity to work with nice and intellegent peoples. But, still i am feeling that i am missing something. I am not satisfying. I am not getting what i want to do and what i want to be. If i say something with my freinds or with my relatives about my feelings than in return, they start to give a long lectures and start to ask me why i am thinking about such nonsense things and why wasting times. They are also right. But, i think that everything is not money, getting good job is not enough. Here are many more things to do, many more things to see and many more stages to cross. There you can get satisfaction where you can do the job with your interest and as per your wish. There you can get satisfaction where you can spend your life as per your desires. There you can get satisfaction where you can enjoy with your feelings. Really, i am in great confusion about my life. I do not want to spend my life as like average people are spending. I do not want to live in pressure. I do not want to pass my precious times in taking tensions. “The Clock is Ticking” By Matt Lazzara which i have also put in my blog site, always strikes in my mind. But………………………. i know that finally i have to compromise. We can not move as per our wish but we have to move where this evil world wants to take us. I hope that you people will help me to be realistic through this blog.
These are my personal things but when i think to write about the politics and my country and i can not find anything different than my life. Everyone is trying to make fool to the people and trying to make their ladder for getting their personal interest. I am fed up from hearing the news that GPK has said so…….., MKN has said ………., Prachanda……….. JTMM………, Limbuwan…….. Nothing new, nothing any progressive, nothing positive, nothing for the people. No any leader is really competent to run this country. No any leader is able to be the leader of not only of a particular party but of the whole nation. What the hell is going with in me and arround my country? Please could you people help me to understand?