After a long time- (Life Sucks, Reality Bites and Tens Pressurized)

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Really, it has been a long time that i have not written anything in my blog. Actually, the time is passing so fast that i am not being able to get it…………….…………….. Wake up at 7 am in the morning, do some regular activities, have meal, go to the office, busy most of the office times doing job, if get some times free than join the net, read some interesting blogs, at the evening stay some minutes with frens in baneshwor chowk having coffee and back to the home, watch tv for sometimes, have dinner, do some gufgaf with sister and now a days dad is also here so have some kurakuni with dad, read some interesting books or news and go to the bed at 11 pm with mentally and physically tiredness. Everyday i m thinking about to do something new, to write something in my blog but everyday fail to do. Actually, i m a little bit lazy also. But today making myself a little bit active, i am trying to update my blog.

Here are lots of things to write but my fingures are not working properly because nothing positive, nothing optimistic, no any progress, no development, nothing to mention proudly. When i look at me and think about myself then i feel sad. I always think to be different, to do something best, to become a great, to be recognized everywhere but these are only my crazy thinking, in reality nothing is happening as per the wishes. I am doing good job. I am getting good salary to survive in this hungry city. I have got a good platform and got the oppertunity to work with nice and intellegent peoples. But, still i am feeling that i am missing something. I am not satisfying. I am not getting what i want to do and what i want to be. If i say something with my freinds or with my relatives about my feelings than in return, they start to give a long lectures and start to ask me why i am thinking about such nonsense things and why wasting times. They are also right. But, i think that everything is not money, getting good job is not enough. Here are many more things to do, many more things to see and many more stages to cross. There you can get satisfaction where you can do the job with your interest and as per your wish. There you can get satisfaction where you can spend your life as per your desires. There you can get satisfaction where you can enjoy with your feelings. Really, i am in great confusion about my life. I do not want to spend my life as like average people are spending. I do not want to live in pressure. I do not want to pass my precious times in taking tensions. “The Clock is Ticking” By Matt Lazzara which i have also put in my blog site, always strikes in my mind. But………………………. i know that finally i have to compromise. We can not move as per our wish but we have to move where this evil world wants to take us. I hope that you people will help me to be realistic through this blog.

These are my personal things but when i think to write about the politics and my country and i can not find anything different than my life. Everyone is trying to make fool to the people and trying to make their ladder for getting their personal interest. I am fed up from hearing the news that GPK has said so…….., MKN has said ………., Prachanda……….. JTMM………, Limbuwan…….. Nothing new, nothing any progressive, nothing positive, nothing for the people. No any leader is really competent to run this country. No any leader is able to be the leader of not only of a particular party but of the whole nation. What the hell is going with in me and arround my country? Please could you people help me to understand?


17 thoughts on “After a long time- (Life Sucks, Reality Bites and Tens Pressurized)

    kumar Adhikari said:
    January 11, 2007 at 3:40 pm

    Dear Utsab ji,
    First of all,Thanks for your nice article with unique test. You have been able to articulate current political situation connecting with your personal feeling and psychology developed by day to day ambivalent experiences. Me too, some times feel so like you but immediately try to manage pessimistic thinking, attitude because we have no other alternative way for going forward and making life, society and nation better with positive but creative, construcitve and conclusive way.

    Of course, we have a lot problems like pandora’s box but we have to be able to elude from this situation creating conducive environment from ourside, ourself first that is first step of Therapy.
    pls, be optimistic with creative thinking and doing something better that is way to transform you, your society and nation.


    HIV said:
    January 12, 2007 at 10:43 am

    Nice to see your new and thought provoking piece.


    khotange said:
    January 12, 2007 at 12:09 pm

    बडो घत लाग्यो तपाईंको ब्लग पढेर ।

    Christina said:
    January 12, 2007 at 3:17 pm

    heyyyyyyyyy r u being pessimistic? It does not suit u. hope u will be optimistic n collect strength to live in reality.

    keshuvko said:
    January 13, 2007 at 12:25 am

    raamro lagyo

    dipesh said:
    January 18, 2007 at 10:11 am

    sathi k cha aajavoli ta vetna pani garo cha yar.well i had studied your article friend. it was true and fine from your sense but when you see your position from other average frens that you have, they will not agree with you. what the hell you are trying to get more than that you are getting right now yar.but fren i am not trying to lecturing you, but still not satisfying with your thought.this is the worldwide principle that every body wants more than what he is achieving right now but don’t be dissatisfied with what you have achieved but do hard job to what you want to achieve. my well wish is always with you. and, finally i am not lecturing you. have a nice time.

    aacshkhanal said:
    February 3, 2007 at 11:31 am

    Hey………. Dear !

    Really life is so much frustrating here. The current situation is so much polluted. We brought the revolution not by the war that held for 10 years but with the peace protest of 19 days and actually it leads us to the world of new charm but we are heading towards the same way that we already been. Hence, we should have to bring something really admirable and new that really attach with each and every nepalese real feelings. From my point of view, Politics is the WIN-WIN game but we don’t understand the simple funda of Politics and we are converting it to WIN-LOSE game.

    If you are doing mistake taht alwasy means u are doing something and doing something is far better doing nothing. Hence, It is quite good to fight for the right that we must have. As we all know that we can’t stop people complaining about the mistake. For example, there is very good pink color painted in one wall and it is really looking very good and there is also one black spot at the corner and people just keep on commenting about the black spot and forget the beautifullness of the pink color that painted in the wall.

    We must have to play the win-win game then only the main essence of LOKTANTRA comes to the main extreme.

    THis is my first try………………If something then don’t forget to give positive feedback.

    michalle said:
    February 3, 2007 at 11:58 pm

    Hello! 😉
    wow… what disturbed news!
    what do U think about it?

    Bikash said:
    February 18, 2007 at 2:34 pm

    Yo life bhanne chij chai sabaiko ustai hunchha ki kya ho. How frustrating? kehi pani afule soche jasto nahune yar.

    Shankar Koirala said:
    February 18, 2007 at 2:35 pm

    Nice expression of the feelings.

    Umesh Sitaula said:
    February 20, 2007 at 1:24 pm

    Hi utsab,
    i like the clock is tickking very much and it pounched in my heart and mind. ra timro feelings pani ramro chha sathi.

    Afno Kura-The Stupid Feelings said:
    February 20, 2007 at 1:35 pm

    Really “The Clock is Ticking” is heart touchy. And, i do recommend to all the readers plz look at it once a time. The writer is no more but the feelings he has expressed is really a lession to all of those people who only know to ran away behind the dissatisfied destination and only know to escape from the happiness and satisfaction can be njoyed from the arround of ourself. What is life? it is nothing but it is everything. It is nothing coz it can missed in a second but it is everything coz we can do a lot within it. So, Njoyyyyyyyyyy it and always try to make it meaningful, colorful, romantic, satisfied and full of happiness.

    Utshab Pokhrel said:
    March 22, 2007 at 1:46 pm

    Life sucks, reality bites and tens pressurized all the time. Can’t it be possible to get the fresh breath without any tensions? Can’t it be possible that we can utilized our life of a once time as per our wish? I am really confused, so i have add the title on this topic.

    […] The Third Meet of Bloggers (March 17, 2007) March 18, 2007 Posted by Utshab in blogs of nepal. trackback Life Sucks, Reality Bites & Tens Pressurized-The Same Story The Same Post & The Same Feeling… […]

    Reality Bites said:
    April 13, 2007 at 12:43 am

    Please feel free ……..and think that ….ONE STEP IS ENOUGH FOR ME………. You feel better.
    Reality Bites

    Utshab Pokhrel said:
    April 13, 2007 at 10:59 am

    Thanks Reality Bites.

    anup ghimire said:
    June 20, 2008 at 3:11 pm

    be sure this is not only ur crazy thinking the difference is ur have got a platform to express it and others havent
    hwere ever u have written the same ordinary thoughts n feeling in x-tra ordinary way
    cooool keep on trying

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